I just realized how much my mentality has to say on how my animation will turn out in the end. I always tend to compare my work to others, and never seem be happy with my results this way, cause I always think my work is shit. Ofcourse I want to improve, but I set myself up mentally against a goal which I made myself belive cannot be achived.
So knowing this, I set out to make an animation and focusing on just me, what I want to do, and took it as it went. I didnt animate for a long period of time, but I feel like this is a beginning of something good. And a much needed beginning at that, since I've tried on and off animating for about six years(!). I've always chased this feeling of being satisfied, chased these fictional result.
I never gave myself a big enough chance before getting discouraged and eventually leaving projects. I always made it easy to leave projects by making excuses. Excuses are so easy to make, and if you want, you can make them endless. This time however, I grabbed my mouse, sat down, gave each limb and every picture respect, and didnt rush it. I had nothing to rush for anyways, because there were no result I was going for anyways needing to be seen, which made it feel refreshing.
Nothing fancy, nothing too flashy, just having fun drawing fun shapes and trying to understand how poses would look the next frame making rules on how this world work, one frame at a time. Cause thats what animation is to me, just the understanding of how things work, and showing your understanding by putting them into drawings. I didnt get discouraged after minutes of drawing, cause I thought to myself, no matter what happens its fine, I'll be fine. I felt alot more patient than I usually do, cause I was for once enjoying animating. I was enjoying drawing every frame.
Hope this is somewhat helpful. Either way, expressing these sketches of thoughts into words helps me sort out my mind. I'll be happy to discuss this or anything else if you'll invite me to. Thanks for reading.
If you're curious, heres the animation.
