Kill Will

Lately my mind has been in a jumble. I've been wondering things, things like: how do I know I'm in love? why can't I just do x? why do people act like x? do I like her or does she like me? what if she likes me but I don't like her? how is stupid possible when the human race has the obvious ability to talk and the obvious ability to find right answers?

I decided to take a break, close my eyes. I've never felt like this before.

I see a blank canvas, although I know it isn't blank as I know that blank isn't a thing. I know it isn't a canvas because it has a shape, a shape where I can not pinpoint any location other than ""here."

It's always black and it's always white. Out of this indescribable color I see an innumerable amount of shapes all with an uncountable number of sides and they all follow unreal motions and walk on paths which I do and do not know are there.

I can describe this indescribable monument because it is always the first thing I see when I wake up and the last thing I see before I sleep. I see it when I blink and I see it when I fall and I see it when I look too fast and I see it out of the corner of my eye when I choose not to sleep some nights just so I don't see it.

It's like shag carpeting, except it's in more dimension that 2 and has a mind of it's own and can reach and grab and pull and pry and stalk and breath and I don't like it.

You're evidently more deep and philosophical than I had taken you for. I'm not even being sarcastic.

Don't know if it's a helpful answer or not but when I close my eyes all I see is darkness and the insides of my eyelids. I can also vaguely notice if someone turns the light on/off.

I see the remains of light that fade slowly in the darkness ...

that sounded incredibly emo

Quote from Ustartin

Lol .

I would like to ask how you think it's funny. I could see how you would think of me as emo/bullshitter/attentionwhore but I don't see how you could read that and find me a comedian.

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I would like to ask how you think it's funny. I could see how you would think of me as emo/bullshitter/attentionwhore but I don't see how you could read that and find me a comedian.

Not you that's funny, just the post.

Lol.

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I see the remains of light that fade slowly in the darkness ...

that sounded incredibly emo

Yeah, I know. and I thought typing that out would make me feel somehow less confused but it hasn't.

I also apologize for what I said earlier today.

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Not you that's funny, just the post.

Lol.

Obviously. I still don't understand how it's funny.

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I also apologize for what I said earlier today.

Accepted. Sorry too.

As "emo" I labeled my own post.

Don't worry about it.

Ustartin, cut that out. Now you're the one starting something. No pun intended ...

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Accepted. Sorry too.

That was actually mainly pointed at Mantha, she knows what I said.

Quote from Mantha

As "emo" I labeled my own post.

Don't worry about it.

Ustartin, cut that out. Now you're the one starting something. No pun intended ...

I know, but I understand that my OP could very easily be described as emo.

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As "emo" I labeled my own post.

Don't worry about it.

Ustartin, cut that out. Now you're the one starting something. No pun intended ...

Budumpump.

(Delete this post)

Delete your own post. I am a janitor here, but I'm not going to wipe your ass.

Sincerely,
-Mantha

I see orange, purple and black moving about.

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Delete your own post. I am a janitor here, but I'm not going to wipe your ass.

Sincerely,
-Mantha

We should so have a thread for quotes that we wanted to sig but couldn't for whatever reason, eg. I limit myself to one quote because otherwise I will have fifty.

On topic: Sometimes I see red as well.

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Budumpump.

(Delete this post)

Delete your own post. I am a janitor here, but I'm not going to wipe your ass.

Sincerely,
-Mantha

You wiped it the other day.

Yeah, you wish ...

I can see fuzzy little blurred dots making lines and then fading. Strange.

Mantha? Don't you remember the song I wrote for you "Oh Mantha"?

Where have all the good times gone?