Sorry for the really long wait, I got a bit sidetracked. This collab is now open for writers to PM entries to me or Nocturna.
Almost all entries will likely be accepted as long as they do not contain any seriously off topic or inappropriate content, like the old Writer's Collab.
I'm not sure exactly what my thoughts and feelings were while I was walking with the soldier. I felt cold inside, like there was a great big gaping chasm inside of me that was leeching out all of the warmth. I remember turmoil in my head, thoughts and ideas whirling around like a miniature hurricane. What am I doing here? Am I making the right decision? Is this what Mom and Dad would want?
That last thought is the one I remember as the clearest, and the most agonizing to think of. My parents were dead. What if they had had expectations for me? This wouldn't be the life they would want for me. They... they might even despise the path I had chosen. I know I had many other thoughts, but they have vanished from my memory.
I remember torturing myself over whether my parents would approve of me or not, and facing the grim realisation that I wasn't thinking about what they would want when I asked to join up for this Niro organisation.
I clenched my jaw and tried my best to put a neutral expression on my face. If I showed any weakness, I would likely be the first to be preyed upon, and I wouldn't have a hope in hell to survive.
My dog nipped at my heels. I stopped my even pacing and looked down at him.
He made a whining sound in his throat, as if to say, 'Where are they? Where is the woman who used to rub my belly every night? Where is the man who used to sleep with me curled up under his arm?'
I fought the irrational urge to shake the stupid dog and yell "They're not coming back! Not now, not ever!" I knew that it was pointless. The dog would only become frightened of me or even angry at me, and I would lose what would probably be my only companionship for the next few days. Not only that, but the soldier would deem me unstable, emotionally insecure, and I would lose what little help and training I might have for my goal to survive.
“Stop.” I heard the voice but didn’t register it in my brain, until I walked into an arm.
The soldier looked back at me. “Pay attention, or you’ll never make it in.’ He gestured towards a seemingly plain white building. I looked closer, and realized what was special about it. No matter how many times I swept my gaze over the area, my eyes never strayed unintentionally towards the white building. “Welcome to the League of Niro. You’ll have your weapons back after you are trained...” He gestured to the knife he had put in a leather sheath. “...as I’ve already said, we don’t know if we can trust you before then. Also...” The soldier squinted his eyes. “You might be part of a very special group...” He then shook his head. “What am I saying,” he mumbled to himself. “A fresh recruit, and I’m already spilling secrets... could he be one of the-“ His nearly inaudible voice was cut off with a startling gurgling sound and a hiss of air, and the main doors of the white building were flung open.
A kid, no older than me, walked through the doors and walked slowly and casually towards the soldier and I. I looked back at the soldier, and realized with a dizzying lurch of my stomach that he was lying on the ground, trickles of blood leaking from a miniature hole in his skull and glassy eyes staring at the sky. I felt bile rising in my throat, and hunched over, clutching my stomach and retching drily into air that had suddenly turned cold and frightening.
The kid made his way over to me while I stayed hunched over, still unable to actually throw up. I realized why. I hadn’t eaten in days, and there was nothing left to bring up.
When the kid got to me, I felt my stomach rise into my throat. I actually managed to puke this time, and when I looked at the ground, I realized that it was all blood. I also realized that I was suspended ten feet above the ground, at that the kid was staring at me with piercing green eyes that seemed to know everything that I was thinking.
“You’ve caused quite a disturbance,” he said at last. “I wish I didn’t have to kill Jonathan, but you really shouldn’t have made him reveal as much as he did.”
“But I didn’t do anything!” I protested. “I didn’t even say a word to him!”
“But you desperately wanted to know what was going to happen to you. You should have just accepted it and kept your thoughts to yourself.”
“But I did!” Even I could tell that my protests were futile. “I didn’t say a word!”
“Too late.” The kid narrowed his eyes. I felt something collapse in my throat, and the world faded to white.