I've often thrown these desires to the wind, trusting it to carry them to my dreams only to watch them plummet half way and feel my warm tears flowing like streams.
I've found it harder to breath though surrounded by air, my aspirations thrown to an abyss of despair, and when I emerged from the dark pit, I scowled and laughed with a bitter taste in my spit.
I laugh to not cry. I smile to not break. The thing I desire most I openly forsake.
And with this horizon to others comes starry eyes and hope, though in my eyes I feel I won't be able to cope.
A plan of a fool is what I devised to shield myself from the salt thrown into my eyes.
My mouth I will seal. Eyes I will lock. I'll silence my heart. I'll surround my soul with lead and rock.
No pain for me. No turmoil for them. I'll have no objections this is a fitting end.
But if you love me I must know
But if you love me don't tell me
If you love me then go
If you leave don't come back
If you love me then stay
Stay and light this room of pitch black