Alright, so the only reason I'm even bothering to post this pathetic rant about life here on a stick figure animation website is because frankly, I have no one else to talk to or even rant at that even begins to care. So if you don't want to see a pathetic 17 year old's frustration at life looking to vent it ANYWHERE, then shut the fuck up and read a different thread. I'm not doing this for you, and i need ANYTHING to talk to at this point because dogs don't talk back.
I don't know if I just have a personality that attracts idiots to me, or if Illinois decided to have a fucking 2013 stupid convention and didn't tell me. It seems that everywhere I go, every person i meet, every single god damn human being I even briefly talk to, just seems to lack every notion of common sense even imaginable. Its fucking pathetic and absolutely revolting. People dump their problems on me, i agree to give advice, they get mad when i give my opinion, and get even more mad when i'm eventually right (which is most of the time with these peoples pathetic problems). Like if you don't fucking like what i'm telling you, then don't ask in the first place because i'm not going to sugar coat your self inflicted problem.
And any of you that have talked to me on this site know that I am not necessarily a rocket scientist. I enjoy learning despite my lack of motivation in school work and know that knowledge is power. I use that to usually get what I want, but its not worth it because I usually cant stand the person i need to talk to to get whatever it is i want.
For instance, a few months ago I wanted sex. I tried womanizing and succeeded one time, but getting to the point of getting laid involved so much chatter and money and effort that it made the half hour of pleasure in a public bathroom seem pointless in the end. I tried womanizing afterwards and couldn't bring myself to do it again because i cant stand the process. They are too fucking stupid. The amount of times I have to hold back from slapping girls with facts on basic common knowledge on just about anything just doesn't justify the outcome.
MY POINT in all this is that I'm done socializing in just about every way. I'm done trying to impress people i don't like, to acquire things i don't need, to satisfy desires that are pointless and formed by society. Who the fuck cares if i only have 16 people in my contact list? I don't fucking need 700 friends on facebook. I don't need to go party and get drunk and smoke weed. I don't need to get pussy and god knows i don't need to put up with them to get it. I'm fucking done.
I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I thought at first it was me! I thought I was the one with the problem! That I am unreasonably irritated by everyone and that i just need to lower my standards! Well, I did. And unfortunately, I was wrong. Even with hundreds of friends and being asked to hang out all the time and having girls asking for my number everywhere, they were still total dip shits.
I apologize for this waste of time and I honestly wouldn't be surprised if Hewitt trashed this thread, but I need someones opinion on this.
So a few questions:
1. Am I alone in this frustration with society? I can't possibly be the only person who thinks this way.
2. Should I bother trying to even meet new people? I'm home-schooled (well, supposed to be anyway) and that makes it difficult, but I know how to when needed.
The only reason 2 is up there is because, as much as I hate to admit it, I'm....lonely. I'm starting to talk to myself as a separate person, a lot. And I've done research on the topic and thought for awhile that I had dissociative identity disorder. But then I realized that I'm just so alone that i do it to cope and entertain my boredom. I don;t want to be rich, have a large social circle, or even be happy for that matter. I just want to be satisfied and have a companion that wont stab me in the back or criticize me. Is that too much to ask?