sometimes when i'm under a lot of stress i start to fucking lose it and do retarded things
fuck
math finals are tomorrow and I slept through class for like a week (It's not even my fault, the teacher is so shit at teaching she doesn't even care at all. She has told people to take naps before, and the two people I sit next to never pay any attention, and it fucking influenced me. the teacher doesn't care if a student copies the answers to whatever assignments, so that's what I've been doing), and didn't pay attention during the next, and don't really remember anything else...
I was trying to study but I can't fucking focus. I also have to read about 200 pages right now, which I tried to do earlier today but fell asleep. I'm not even a bad student; I've just been halfassing too much lately
also we learned everything about radicals and shit last year and the year before, maybe even further back, but I can never manage to actually learn that shit. It comes back to haunt me every year.
god can't you tell i'm just procrastinating again and distracting myself by being here? why do i do this to myself