People like you are the reason modern gaming sucks ass. Back in elementary school pretty much everyone had Goldeneye and pretty much everyone played because it was fun, not because they liked winning. And for the most part most 18-20ish year olds seem to still get it, but all the ****ing 12-15 year olds playing Halo and MW2 are little whiny bitches because they never grew up with the idea that video games are supposed to be about having fun, not about having fun under the condition that you're winning.
I have a brother that does this, something about widespread online gaming bred little shits like you that can't have fun unless they're dominating the scoreboards, that's not the ****ing point of playing a game. There's a reason people flipping out to games wind up getting thousands of views on Youtube and get ridiculed by everyone.
If you've gotten to the point where you can only conditionally enjoy a game, then don't bother playing it. If you're in it for the money, get a day job like everyone else and use games to relieve stress, not to facilitate it.