It was my birthday today, still got 30 minutes left. Spent the entire day working on my art final, didnt get to hang out with my friends, my girl, go out, anything. Birthdays are usually pretty hard on me because of the way I see them and the way I think, but this one was the worst in a few years, major depressed, stressed out of my mind and no way to get it out because I had to keep going. When working on my project got to be too much I cleaned it all up, showered, made some food and now im lying in bed. Feel real bad, the stress is gone and now its just...emptiness. Fuck.
Got the complete hemingway, charles dickens and jules verne novels and dracula from my mom though so that was a really big upside, I got hemingway sitting next to me in bed right now, maybe all is not lost.
I read this while a slow solo piano song came up on my iTunes on shuffle. Added to the effect. Sorry to hear that, mate. But you should really listen to what Scarecrow said.
Have a good holiday, Scarecrow, by the way.
My turn to share a story. Today I got called up by a workplace nearby that had my number (I've been doing small jobs around my town lately). They asked me if I could come in for a few hours and sign flip for them. I've been saving up money lately so I agreed to do so. When I walked in they said I had the option of wearing a costume. It was a green morphsuit, lol. I decided "Fuck it" because it sounded like fun. I put it on and stood on the side of the road in a green fucking morphsuit holding up just a store name sign. It was extremely windy and the thing almost fell out of my grip like 10 times. So I came back in 45 minutes later and decided to just do it in regular wear. Well I stood out there for about another hour and a half and realized I was supposed to for another 3 hours. That's when it hit me, this was fucking retarded. I went back inside and told them I had to leave for a family emergency. But I felt bad for ditching out on the job, so I told them they didn't have to pay me.
I'm home now and am really glad that I did a stupid and pointless job. Because now I realize how stupid and pointless they are first hand. So now I'm putting myself towards better things and get myself a talent and job worth doing that I myself can benefit from.