I completely know what you're talking about. It's bullshit, you know? Like how in the fuck am I supposed to be the confident guy everyone likes when I have every reason to be unconfident. When I'm with people if I'm the loud outgoing and leadership-filled one, I get ignored and the quiet guy that kept to himself gets the attention. If I'm the quiet one that's just minding his own business to the side, I get ignored and the confident guy gets the attention. It's the weirdest thing. Almost like an odd phenomenon. With that situation constantly happening, I can have two beliefs. One: I happen to be terribly uninteresting and everyone around me all happen to just be ignorant to only me but no one else for whatever reason. Or two: There is a weird supernatural force working against me and making others just not gain the will to support me. Now honestly, what makes more sense?

I don't want to live a life where all my endeavors were halted short. I might as well just laze through life instead of giving myself false hope.

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I completely know what you're talking about. It's bullshit, you know? Like how in the fuck am I supposed to be the confident guy everyone likes when I have every reason to be unconfident. When I'm with people if I'm the loud outgoing and leadership-filled one, I get ignored and the quiet guy that kept to himself gets the attention. If I'm the quiet one that's just minding his own business to the side, I get ignored and the confident guy gets the attention. It's the weirdest thing. Almost like an odd phenomenon. With that situation constantly happening, I can have two beliefs. One: I happen to be terribly uninteresting and everyone around me all happen to just be ignorant to only me but no one else for whatever reason. Or two: There is a weird supernatural force working against me and making others just not gain the will to support me. Now honestly, what makes more sense?

I don't want to live a life where all my endeavors were halted short. I might as well just laze through life instead of giving myself false hope.

I completely get that. So I fixed the problem. I use women for sex when I get bored and dont start any serious relationship anymore. Because fuck women. Litterally. And I also just stopped going out of my way to hang out with people. If you think that Im not interesting enough to hang out with, Im not going out of my way to try and arrange anything. Sure, I only have two friends that seem to kind of care. And yeah, I am fucking lonely most of the time. But I would rather be alone with little to no social life, than to have a bunch of fake friends that hang out with me because I have money and can actually organize something.

I mean Im pretty fucking awesome, just nobody seems to realize it. Once people sit down and genuinely get to know me they say "wow, you're pretty cool, why arent you more social?" I have been hanging out with your pathetic group for 3 weeks, dafuck you mean "be more social"? Thats exactly what im doing.

I pretty much gave up on it and people and general, and accepted the fact that i wont have many friends in life. Im ok with it most of the time.

It's the fucking funniest thing when I'll be talking with a group of girls and they're getting to know me and they always say, "Wow, how are you single?" In which I reply, "You tell me."

I get what you're saying Cruel. There was a point in my life where I did actually understand why douchebags were douchebags. It's because they don't want to deal with other people's shit. Live for yourself. Don't live for others. Do what you think is progressive and right.

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It's the fucking funniest thing when I'll be talking with a group of girls and they're getting to know me and they always say, "Wow, how are you single?" In which I reply, "You tell me."

You need to come up with a good pickup line in response to that question then.

Well, Cruel, that's just the 'muricans being anuses. I'm sure the mexicans are cool with you. People in Latin countries don't usually act like that. Not trying to be 'racist' or whatever but, they seem.... friendlier?

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It's the fucking funniest thing when I'll be talking with a group of girls and they're getting to know me and they always say, "Wow, how are you single?" In which I reply, "You tell me."

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You need to come up with a good pickup line in response to that question then.

"Well, I've been waiting."

"Because I've been waiting for someone like you."

"I've been waiting for you."

"I haven't met you yet."

You just did. "I hadn't met you yet." And, wasn't that a song?

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MatrixNinja2000;1078357']"I've been waiting for you."

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"I haven't met you yet."

Get used to the smell of tuna Sacred.

Thank my Bond, Sacred. Remember, Shaken not Stirred.

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MatrixNinja2000;1078339']Well, Cruel, that's just the 'muricans being anuses. I'm sure the mexicans are cool with you. People in Latin countries don't usually act like that. Not trying to be 'racist' or whatever but, they seem.... friendlier?





"Well, I've been waiting."

Its not racist at all. Its true. The latino culture is a much friendlier and kind to strangers type of culture.. Why the hell do you think I have no problem leaving my house at 17 to go there and get the fuck out of public highschool?

Cruel's right you know.

I'm surprised at how both of you guys (Cruel and Sacred) have given up so easily on life.

The fight hasn't even begun. I haven't even lived life longer than you, yet I still think you're being to idiotic towards this. Even if you say you've tried an optimistic point of view, you still need work on your life. You're both too young.

First of all, if you think you're a uninteresting guy who amounts to literally nothing, then you are. You need confidence, all that you've said and what I've read so far is on doubt and negatively "rational" thinking. It's the belief that you'll succeed that makes you succeed, not the fear of failing. I know. After a while you think it'll never work. You think nothing will get better in a million years. All those millenia will pass by and no one will acknowledge you/love you/accept you for who you are. The point of "blind faith" is that it's not blind, it's your conscience and your heart knowing that you can be better, which you can and you are, than what you now consciously think of yourselves to be. You need to wake up each morning not ready to embrace being alone again, but to enjoy your day and make the best of it.

Again, not as old as you. Maybe I'm being ignorant and I don't know as much, but I had a minor crush on a girl. I got the guts to tell her how I felt, and she friendzoned me with the words "awesome friend". That may seem real simple and insignificant, but it hurts WAY MORE than a straight up no. Instead of nothing you get pity. Or something like it. You doubt yourself, thinking you could've been better than just an awesome friend, only to come so close and fail. I'm not venting, it's the past behind me. Anyhow, eventually instead of being depressed you realize might as well try to be the awesome friend she thinks of you to be and you go for it. You take every chance to have a conversation, only to fail because you don't know what to say, even though you've thought about it for nights and occasionally rehearsed it in front of the mirror. You leave abruptly, red in the face, feeling dejected. Overtime, I realized maybe I just sucked horribly as a friend and that was just a lie to comfort me, and eventually it turned to you guys, where maybe she didn't give a damn about me and didn't see what an awesome guy I was. The truth is, she did. All the moments we laughed and talked and had the most fun before I threw in the big buster were amazing times. I was the one who didn't see how funny I could be, how good I was with talking to girls, growing up with an older sister. Inside I thought I sucked, so I thought of what to say. With that, everything was going into a downward spiral.

What I realized then was to not think, and just do. Forget about what to say and just say anything. Give up making the first move continuously and just talk on your own comfort time or when you feel the timing's right. Or when the opportunity is right, like she drops something or her bag's open or whatever. Don't think, don't think. Just keep doing. If a joke you crack isn't funny, think of another one or just move on with the conversation. Don't take one shot and put everything on that. Things like relationships/friendships are SPONTANEOUS. You can't say "That's the one," and imagine you're going to marry or something lol. Think about your parents: did they first meet and think about being married and having you guys? No. It started with a simple hello. Gradually, more meetings occur and you talk more frequently. Blah blah blah, you know the rest. But what's crucial is that they fell in love with PLENTY OF GUYS AND GIRLS BEFORE meeting. That's with romance, I guess. As for friends, it amounts to the same thing. You sit with the guy in class, lean over asking "What's your name." The next classes you sit among one another and talk and talk. Soon you get to know each other, BUT YOU'RE OBLIVIOUS TO IT. That's the one mistake people make: they try to force the getting to know part.

The simplest way I can say this is to let life flow and just let things happen. You shouldn't forcefully try to get what you want all the time when it comes to a social life, you just make the best of what you have. Your talents, good charm, etc.

But Mr. Sacred here thinks he has no talents. As said in the first paragraph above, you need to believe there's something you excel at beyond others. You hurt inside because you willingly accept that you're not good at anything when it's not true. You're a damn brave dude you know. Being able to truly express yourself without caring for what all the other people think is extremely hard to do. Lots of people go to forums like this to avoid doing things like that. Now, it's good for haters. If people ignore you, it's because they're not worth it. Not because you aren't right for them. Back to talents. What you gotta do is find what you're good at. As I look at it, I guess the reason why you’re “ok” at everything is because you don’t focus on ONE THING, but everything instead. You really need to devote your time to doing something you enjoy doing and you feel is worth doing. The principle of perseverance is to keep trying no matter how many times you fail. You’ll eventually get the knack at it. Pretty much like what they’ve starting doing in schools, a student will retake assessments and exams until he improves. He receives feedback along the way on what he needs to work on, which is what you should aim for. What you need to improve on so you’re not “mediocre”. If you’re okay in sports in GENERAL, then find out exactly what SPECIFIC sports you’re good at, or which ones you seem to be better at among the others. It’s just an example, but what it means is that you need to elaborate yourself and realize what you may lack in when you say “mediocre” and try to dig deeper than what you’ve said in the OP.
I’ve said enough just for Sacred, and maybe Cruel. You guys are young, you have years and years ahead of you, don’t waste it. Lazing yourself through life makes you less worthy, which is what you think of yourselves not to be. Which is good. Think like that. Just change your interpretation on life.
I guess what I’ve to say about Cruel is that I’m surprised you’ve amounted to such shameless behavior. You need to think about your own mother, dude. At this point, you’re losing it man. Like honestly, you’re what…17? You’ll find the one; you just gotta keep looking. You’ll get married in your 20’s or so. Don’t make the stupid life choice of being single because of one girlfriend, alright? She was the one who wasn’t loyal. I mean, you’re in Mexico. Not everyone knows that place, and would be curious about it. It’s not you who did anything wrong, stupid hoe was being selfish. Stupid hoe decided to prostitute herself to other guys because she can’t see what you are. If you went out of your way to make her happy and stuff, you make a great boyfriend and possibly father/husband. If she can’t appreciate any of that, you don’t want be with someone the likes of her. She doesn’t deserve you. Believe me, when you grow older and find the girl of your dreams, you’ll be laughing at her and the bitch be like “I wish I had him.”
If you’re more concerned about friends though, take my advice for it. A lot of people, who aren’t really my friends, in school thought I was a nerd and really didn’t see what I was and what I could be. That was until I stood up the corrupt super-intendent and rebelled against my crap substitute so-called history teacher. They gave me respect because I earned it and they saw who I was. They were saying I got balls and the whole 9 yards. The works with acknowledgement. You need to show people who you are, that you’ve got balls. That you make the cut and call the shots. You need to law down the law and show them who’s the boss. When you come back from Mexico (if you return), you walk up to your ex and give her a good slap. You show her and everyone who was the dumbass and who was at the goddamn butt-end of the relationship. You wanna make friends, be who you want to be, and show everyone your talent and your credibility as a human being. Aight? Even this belated, super long speech makes people see who I am. You know why? Because I want to help you anyway possible. It’s who I want to be and choose to be. It’s what I feel makes me interesting and friendly and worth being socially known. You’ve got to do the same, man. You gotta be the Cruel and make the name be heard.
If I missed anything…if you have a rebuttal, if there’s something really off. Or even if this pissed you off, do tell. It’s what I want to fulfill. Good luck men. God be with you and such, and enjoy your lives to the fullest.

fuck.