Subject: Has anyone here been tortured in any way? Emotional or Physical.

My brother's been torturing me lately. He tortured me when I was 11 when he attacked me, and at 14 when he left for his 3rd rehab. He is in my dreams. He's been haunting my thoughts. My family is hurt terribly, and I feel actually depressed for the first time in my entire life. I refused to go to the therapist, as my mom suggested after the wake. I can't stand being in a therapist's or psychiatrist's office.

The stale nonliving face I saw in the frame I've seen too often is constantly in the background of my thoughts whenever the name Jon, or the word brother, or Klopp or drugs come up. I am feeling I should go to a therapist's office, because it's been unbearable lately.

My mom just came up to me with tears in her eyes asking if she wants me to place his ashes in zip-lock baggies to spread them everywhere, and asked if I wanted a section of the ashes. I still can't look at the ashes. They would be the 9 year old child in the midpoint of his life playing baseball's ashes I would be looking at. I can't take it. Now she's in her room, doing this alone, and I feel like an ass.

By the way: If anyone noticed I've been a tad moody on the forums lately, that's why. I go on here to escape earth and chat with people who don't have any problems on the internet (not in real life, of course) I don't care if you call me an attention whore, because I think I would be if I would have posted it when he overdosed. I tried not to in case I was heckled, but now that I'm feeling as though the occurrence is now acid inside me, I can bring it up in a public related subject so that you guys have more to do with this thread is sympathize and make fun of me, and bring up your own instances of torture.

Discuss.

:(

reading your post was torture =P

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reading your post was torture =P

I understand. I tend to drag on, and illiterate people don't like my posts too often as a result.

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I understand. I tend to drag on, and illiterate people don't like my posts too often as a result.

*HIGH FIVE!*

Also, what happened to him?

Overdose on cough medicine. -.-

Has anyone else been tortured.....?

I torture myself. I'm doing it right now.

I'm looking at porn and not fapping. Christ, **** Chinese water torture this is the real deal.

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lol @ poor people who cant afford a vase


btw im confused about your post kitsune can you rewrite it

We can afford a vase, but she wants to spread it in the garden, with our grandpa, in other places, etc. She wants to know if I want some in a container of some sorts.

My brother died of an overdose, I'm thinking about it constantly, and my poor mother has to deal with the ashes,

There's your rewrite.

Now discuss some situations if you will.

I have to go to bed. I have swim practice in the morning, and it's ****ing 11 pm here. >.<

G'nite

when i was fightin the chinkies in nam i was captured and tortured and then i broke out and swam home

Cough medicine overdose?

Sorry man, you must be feeling really bad.

Nite.

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lol @ poor people who cant afford a vase

I think you mean "urn"

Same thing, one has a lid and the other doesn't.

One is meant for daisies and the other for pushing daisies?

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One is meant for daisies and the other for pushing daisies?

Ba dum tshhh.


Eh, that sucks, cough medicine. Did you just find him in his room with it or what?

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One is meant for daisies and the other for pushing daisies?

Correction, one is for pulled daisies and the other is for pushed daisies.