the definition of nerd is funny. By what you are describing, "nerd" is simply being an outcast that happens to play video games.

I am an active gamer and anime enthusiast. I get games as they come out (with the exception of recent next gen games because they're expensive af, I read anime manga and comics all the time, and enjoy researching things for fun. I'm every definition of the word "nerd".

However, I know HOW to socialize, I know HOW to interact with women and have girlfriends, and I'm also athletic. In that sense, that would make me a jock right?

So I kind of know both sides of the coin in this situation because I know what it's like to be the outcast, while also being the center of attention. I went to 3 different schools and was a different type of person in front of the different social cliques. However, when I went home and was by myself, I would play League of Legends and watch Full Metal Alchemist the rest of the evening before reading a Batman comic and going to bed. That's who I am and what I enjoy, but I also do enjoy hanging out with people and doing things. Thus why I have many acquaintances, but only 3 true friends.

Granted, now, although I still date often, I'm much more anti-social than I used to be since I go to an online college. But basically what I'm trying to get at is that peoples opinions and judgments of you only matter if you let them matter. In reality they are just thoughts and perceptions that change from one person to the next, so be whatever makes you happy.

Except if you're an asshole. Don't be an asshole.

Thanks for the advice guys appreciate it, as well Cruel I know how to socialize, its just I choose not too. At least I have one friend who has the same interests as me, he is the only 'true' friend i consider now, and honestly I think I do come off as a asshole sometimes when Im clearly not, everyone seems to take everything I say the wrong way, its just I dont respect others enough to be really nice to them since I have been bullied when I went to elementary school, i have learned not to respect people in that aspect because I have realized no matter how nice you will be to people they will still be assholes anyways, and I have moved to a new school when I was younger and have been here ever since and its a shit ton better then the last school, when I moved here I wanted to change myself to be a happy person but I realized no matter how nice you can be to people they still will be assholes, which maybe its still my fault for having this mind set, I do want to be nice to people but I just can't seem to like people. So I just ignore everyone and hang out with my friend, and after dating I have found more of a hatred for people. I still need to fix alot of what I think of people though then I think some of my problems will be resolved, I also make sure I'm not a self centered prick since thats the way I am, I dunno i still need to change alot of myself which no one can really help me except myself.

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Thanks for the advice guys appreciate it, as well Cruel I know how to socialize, its just I choose not too. At least I have one friend who has the same interests as me, he is the only 'true' friend i consider now, and honestly I think I do come off as a asshole sometimes when Im clearly not, everyone seems to take everything I say the wrong way, its just I dont respect others enough to be really nice to them since I have been bullied when I went to elementary school, i have learned not to respect people in that aspect because I have realized no matter how nice you will be to people they will still be assholes anyways, and I have moved to a new school when I was younger and have been here ever since and its a shit ton better then the last school, when I moved here I wanted to change myself to be a happy person but I realized no matter how nice you can be to people they still will be assholes, which maybe its still my fault for having this mind set, I do want to be nice to people but I just can't seem to like people. So I just ignore everyone and hang out with my friend, and after dating I have found more of a hatred for people. I still need to fix alot of what I think of people though then I think some of my problems will be resolved, I also make sure I'm not a self centered prick since thats the way I am, I dunno i still need to change alot of myself which no one can really help me except myself.

Man I had the same mentality when I was in highschool. You kind of a learn that being a dick makes you just as bad as they are. Respect is a matter of maturity and realizing that even though the person you're talking to may be a dick, you responding to his dickery in a harsh way makes you no better than him.

Be your best for you, not necessarily for others. That way you'll find people who are the same way. And when you're still nice to someone who's a dick to you, you can come out of the situation knowing that you aren't the one at fault in that situation.

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Man I had the same mentality when I was in highschool. You kind of a learn that being a dick makes you just as bad as they are. Respect is a matter of maturity and realizing that even though the person you're talking to may be a dick, you responding to his dickery in a harsh way makes you no better than him.

Be your best for you, not necessarily for others. That way you'll find people who are the same way. And when you're still nice to someone who's a dick to you, you can come out of the situation knowing that you aren't the one at fault in that situation.

huh, ya your absolutely right I will change myself to that mind set I think if I do that things will go a lot smoother, but everyone around me seems to point out how much of a dick I am, and then I see them doing more dick moves then me, and usually I have a viable reason for being a dick to that person for whatever cause, which makes me respect no one since they point out whatever I do then they just turn their backs and go right ahead and do something way fucking worse. Also may I ask how where you able to change your mind set since you had the same mind set as me when you were in high school?

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huh, ya your absolutely right I will change myself to that mind set I think if I do that things will go a lot smoother, but everyone around me seems to point out how much of a dick I am, and then I see them doing more dick moves then me, and usually I have a viable reason for being a dick to that person for whatever cause, which makes me respect no one since they point out whatever I do then they just turn their backs and go right ahead and do something way fucking worse. Also may I ask how where you able to change your mind set since you had the same mind set as me when you were in high school?

When you get out of school you'll see that the real world's way different than how you are in school. Don't sweat it, you will maybe keep 2 or 3 friends tops from high school, and the rest of your social interactions won't even matter. It's just a game to see who's more confident and who can show off more. It's ok to be an outcast sometimes.

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When you get out of school you'll see that the real world's way different than how you are in school. Don't sweat it, you will maybe keep 2 or 3 friends tops from high school, and the rest of your social interactions won't even matter. It's just a game to see who's more confident and who can show off more. It's ok to be an outcast sometimes.

Ya your right man, its a shame that high school has to be thins way, its just people choose for it to be like this

Yeah I ignored people most of my last year in high school and just drew alot. Now I'm in a design college online and have pretty limited social interactions outside of work, but I'm totally ok with that. Just depends on the individual.

If you like to be social, then go for it, if not, then don't feel pressured into doing it because you'll be an "outcast". There's plenty of people like you out there. Just better yourself and be the best you can be for you and not to impress anybody and it's all good from there.

You do you man.

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You do you man.

Ya man thanks for the advice appreciate it

Hydra, to be honest I think society doesn't give a shit about what you do and not do. Maybe you are a bit insecure about yourself. And lets face it, aren't we all somewhere nerds these days? Everyone plays games in one way or another.

I'd tell you not to think about it too much now because you will realize it will be a waste of time once you grow up some more.

That's my opinion about your story heh.

MTG is not fun.

Problem solved XD

seriously though, i wanna say the Blues are the worst fucking control freaks ever, but each color has their own assholery. fucking Blacks and their dead again born again bullshit

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MTG is not fun.

Problem solved XD

seriously though, i wanna say the Blues are the worst fucking control freaks ever, but each color has their own assholery. fucking Blacks and their dead again born again bullshit

uhhhh blue and black are my favorite colors to play ._.

Personally, I wouldn't consider myself as a nerd. I would consider myself a geek (Yes, technically there is a difference). I am still an avid gamer, maybe little too much (I've been playing Minecraft since it came out) and I do actually do some good things. However, in the same social sense, I am considered lower on the popularity scale. I have never been to a "high school party" but would probably not go if offered. I have aways hated pep rallies and dances too. But, I'm happy with the way I am. I would like to consider myself one of the most mature people at my school.

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MTG is not fun.

Problem solved XD

seriously though, i wanna say the Blues are the worst fucking control freaks ever, but each color has their own assholery. fucking Blacks and their dead again born again bullshit

Have you even fought against White/Blue/Black Decks? Those are the worst control freaks.